"EVE"
that allows you to lay 2gether in daylight
fosters a degree of trust we have lost.
Instead of making love under the sun
I've learned to creep in the dark,
I wonder if he knows..
Knows what happened to "us" or
to me.
The only time I'm thinking of him,
is when I'm thinking of when,
I almost got caught &
what not to do again.
I guess that's not fair..
But if I won't be honest with him,
I must be honest with me,
and honestly,
I don't care.
See I'm selfish..
I think of money cars and clothes
just as much as he does..
To my bottom bitches,
I claim the man I see more
than the man that loves me.
And to my friends..
yes my friends,
there is a difference,
between them and my bitches.
Well I explain to them,
that this other man is just another ho
in my phone..
Ironic that my blackberry doesn't record,
all the times I called upon my love,
& he was there
vs..
the times I called on lust
& was left unsatisfied.
Still damp between a tight space
this gold of mine
has rusted...
Letting another man mine
for what treasures my man has multiplied.
What am I worth?
God sent me an angel to guide me on earth
& I've built our home in hell.
Damned in what he calls our garden of eden.
The apple didn't fall to far from the tree.
Welcome to your modern day eve.
Once again...
destroying something heavenly.
Drastically..
making it harder for the generation behind me.
Statistically..
proclaiming a destiny plotted upon me.
I fell for it.
We did the necessary..
a break up
a make up
topped off with a friendship fall out .
He vowed to always be there
but his eyes said different.
Proclaimed..
to never be played by another bitch
back then,
I thought there was a difference
between me & a trick
but I guess you become what you practice.
There were sorrys,
long enough to wrap around his earth twice
but he doesn't remember those
& I couldn't recall our happiness or his I love yous.
I destroyed a man in name of secular selfishness.
Now he's married.. 2 gorgeous kids
& I'm lonely
~Zsazsa khu Lawson
I'm definitely not a fan for those who cheat. Love who loves you... don't be an "eve," instead prove your worthiness for your "adam"
